inila yg terjadi bila dua org perempuan yg menghampiri usia 27 tahun, bujang, chatting di tgh malam minggu..
muniraazman: uih
afiza churemy: online tuk mengedik
afiza churemy: hahahaha
muniraazman: nak ajak menggedik secra virtual ke?
muniraazman: ahahaha
afiza churemy: tp xde sape yg nak di gedikkan
muniraazman: tak produktif lgsg ko menggedik dgn aku
muniraazman: aku ingat ym lg mainstream dr fb
muniraazman: gile tak ramai online mlm ni
muniraazman: aku cam kecik ati plak
afiza churemy: kecewa aku ni
muniraazman: ahahaha
afiza churemy: hahahahaa
afiza churemy: nak conference pon cam xde org je
muniraazman: dulu aku tunggu2 weekend
muniraazman: skang ni bedebar bila nak dtg weekend
muniraazman: sbb tatau nak spend buat ape
muniraazman: ahahahah
afiza churemy: ceh
muniraazman: gile takde life
afiza churemy: start crisis ni
muniraazman: crisis ni dipanggil krisis melepasi suku abad
muniraazman: ahahaha
afiza churemy: gerun tgk nombor la ni
muniraazman: nombor tu takdela sgt
muniraazman: tp gerun tgk org paste gamba anak kat fb
afiza churemy: hahahahahaa
afiza churemy: jelang isnin je
afiza churemy: org duk post gambor kawen
afiza churemy: masuk selase
afiza churemy: gambor anak
afiza churemy: rabu
afiza churemy: phone plak dering
afiza churemy: ask address
afiza churemy: khamis
afiza churemy: kad sampai
afiza churemy: jumaat
afiza churemy: org taye pegi kenduri kawen x
afiza churemy: sabtu ahad
afiza churemy: full book kenduri
muniraazman: ahahahahaahha
afiza churemy: seriau aku
afiza churemy: hahahhahaa
afiza churemy: lg xdelife ni
muniraazman: pastu ko sendiri dok post gamba kawen org
afiza churemy: tu la
afiza churemy: hahahahhahhaa
muniraazman: takpun gamab skolah
muniraazman: dan org2 dlm gamba tu sume dah kawen beranak pinak
muniraazman: huh
afiza churemy: tu je tuk elak org duk bincang kawen
afiza churemy: hahahaa
muniraazman: tapape tah kite ni
afiza churemy: tolong bukak topic lain
muniraazman: ha itulah
afiza churemy: pe ceter la ni
muniraazman: ahahahah
afiza churemy: aku bace ur blog
muniraazman: soalan tu cuma akan membawa kpd topic yg lebih kurang sama
afiza churemy: yer ke
afiza churemy: ok
afiza churemy: tukaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
muniraazman: sekarang cuaca selalu panas kan?
muniraazman: (tanda takde idea)
muniraazman: ahahahah
afiza churemy: mmg xde topic
afiza churemy: jelang petang je hujan cam kilat
afiza churemy: tp sekejap je kan
muniraazman: kilat je lebih
muniraazman: angin cam nak taufan
muniraazman: hujannye sikit je
afiza churemy: sbb awan tak de air
afiza churemy: pe barang ceter sal awan n hujan
muniraazman: wahahaahhaahha
sememangnya ktrg takde topik nak dibincangkan selain dari topik yg ktrg nak ngelak. mungkin ada, tp tak cukup menarik. jadi....? ye akhirnya ktrg menggelakkan diri sendiri buat kesekian kalinya..
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
nak main layang2
sakit. sakit sangat2.
takut. takut melampau2.
dah tak ada cara nak legakan hati.
tak ada lawak yg boleh ringankan semua ini.
yg paling indah mampu aku fikir,
kalaulah ada seorang yg sudi memeluk aku, dan aku boleh menangis tanpa rasa bersalah..
ya aku takkan mampu buat begitu dgn mak dan abah,
tangis aku akan lebih kpd rasa bersalah
berat. aku memang dah jatuh. dan aku perlukan sesuatu yg mampu angkat aku semula.
aku perlu sangat2.
memang kalau mabuk itu tak berdosa,
dah lama aku cuba.
sekarang aku cuma nak main layang2..
takut. takut melampau2.
dah tak ada cara nak legakan hati.
tak ada lawak yg boleh ringankan semua ini.
yg paling indah mampu aku fikir,
kalaulah ada seorang yg sudi memeluk aku, dan aku boleh menangis tanpa rasa bersalah..
ya aku takkan mampu buat begitu dgn mak dan abah,
tangis aku akan lebih kpd rasa bersalah
berat. aku memang dah jatuh. dan aku perlukan sesuatu yg mampu angkat aku semula.
aku perlu sangat2.
memang kalau mabuk itu tak berdosa,
dah lama aku cuba.
sekarang aku cuma nak main layang2..
what being financially unequipped has done to me
1. i turned to anak dara pingitan. i dont go out. except for sending hani to school.
2. i cant pay the car, let alone the gas. everyday i hope mom wld use the car and fill up the tank so i can use the balance she left.
3. i turn down offers to date. because i'd prefer to go dutch. but i cant afford that and i dont want him to pay for me or at least when he decided to go dutch i hv the money to pay for myself ..
4. i cant go to meetings that supposed to pay me because i cant pay the cost of going to the meeting..
5. lesser social life. again, to be socially active i hv to hv the money to fill up gas, to pay the movie tickets, pay for food.
6. my confidence level has gone down terribly. always hoping for people to pay for u is pathetic. i really want to give to people..
7. my priorities has differed all the way. money is number one.
8. my insurance agent is pestering me. he's helping me actually. but i hv to pay the premiums. how? how? anything happen now, i wont be covered. so dont bother to kill me and get the payment.
9. i now hv phobia for my fav song malam bulan dipagar bintang i used to hv as my ringtone. because everytime the phone rings, its hutang..
10. i dont call people, because i cant pay the phone bills.
11. i cant get out of the office because i hv to pay the bills. i may not getting the deposits back because of that. still no hope in getting any money.
12. i become quiet. i dont tell anything to my parents. because telling is just gonna make me feel worse.
13. sometimes i slept too little, and sometimes i slept too much.
14. i dont hv any idea what kind of routine i'm going everyday.
15. i become too hopeful for a miracle to happen.
16. i laugh everytime i get the chance. not a perfect cover, but it works just okay..
17. i'm addicted to sudoku. it's one way to divert my mind. and i may hv done that too often.
conclusion? stress, stress,stresssssssssssssssssssssss
2. i cant pay the car, let alone the gas. everyday i hope mom wld use the car and fill up the tank so i can use the balance she left.
3. i turn down offers to date. because i'd prefer to go dutch. but i cant afford that and i dont want him to pay for me or at least when he decided to go dutch i hv the money to pay for myself ..
4. i cant go to meetings that supposed to pay me because i cant pay the cost of going to the meeting..
5. lesser social life. again, to be socially active i hv to hv the money to fill up gas, to pay the movie tickets, pay for food.
6. my confidence level has gone down terribly. always hoping for people to pay for u is pathetic. i really want to give to people..
7. my priorities has differed all the way. money is number one.
8. my insurance agent is pestering me. he's helping me actually. but i hv to pay the premiums. how? how? anything happen now, i wont be covered. so dont bother to kill me and get the payment.
9. i now hv phobia for my fav song malam bulan dipagar bintang i used to hv as my ringtone. because everytime the phone rings, its hutang..
10. i dont call people, because i cant pay the phone bills.
11. i cant get out of the office because i hv to pay the bills. i may not getting the deposits back because of that. still no hope in getting any money.
12. i become quiet. i dont tell anything to my parents. because telling is just gonna make me feel worse.
13. sometimes i slept too little, and sometimes i slept too much.
14. i dont hv any idea what kind of routine i'm going everyday.
15. i become too hopeful for a miracle to happen.
16. i laugh everytime i get the chance. not a perfect cover, but it works just okay..
17. i'm addicted to sudoku. it's one way to divert my mind. and i may hv done that too often.
conclusion? stress, stress,stresssssssssssssssssssssss
Monday, January 11, 2010
nak gaduh?
gaduhla sorang2. aku dah tak peduli apa kau fikir. aku rasa tak perlu untuk aku gaduh untuk menegakkan pendirian aku kalau aku tak peduli pun apa pendirian kau. dah tak ada sebab untuk aku mintak kau faham. jadi tak ada keperluan lagi untuk aku bertekak dengan kau.
jangan minta maaf, sebab aku dah tak peduli. tapi aku tak berani unutk kata aku dah maafkan. kalaupun kau nak terus hidup dlm guilt, itu tak menggembirakan aku, aku cuma tak peduli. kalau kau hidup dgn bahagia, itu pun tak menggembirakan aku, aku memang tak peduli.
aku akan buat2 tersenyum. biar semua orang taktau yang aku dah tak peduli. cuma aku takkan lihat ke mata kau lagi, sebab apa yg ada disebalik itu, aku dah tak peduli lagi.
jangan minta maaf, sebab aku dah tak peduli. tapi aku tak berani unutk kata aku dah maafkan. kalaupun kau nak terus hidup dlm guilt, itu tak menggembirakan aku, aku cuma tak peduli. kalau kau hidup dgn bahagia, itu pun tak menggembirakan aku, aku memang tak peduli.
aku akan buat2 tersenyum. biar semua orang taktau yang aku dah tak peduli. cuma aku takkan lihat ke mata kau lagi, sebab apa yg ada disebalik itu, aku dah tak peduli lagi.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
october, november, december and january
assalamualaikum.
tho january has another 25 days to go, i wuld like to conclude my life in this four months in one word: HELL.
a whole lot of ups and downs that i haven't quite figured out the bright side of it all yet. ...not just yet..
wondering how much more i can take, how long i'd be able to share this despair, how much strength left to stick myself in one piece.
..and after all..
anger is still anger,
grudge has always been grudge,
tired.. all along.
left alone and still alone.
what's so bright of it all? optimistic doesnt seem to be a word anymore..
-lailahaillaanta subhanaka inni kuntu minazzalimiiin.....
tho january has another 25 days to go, i wuld like to conclude my life in this four months in one word: HELL.
a whole lot of ups and downs that i haven't quite figured out the bright side of it all yet. ...not just yet..
wondering how much more i can take, how long i'd be able to share this despair, how much strength left to stick myself in one piece.
..and after all..
anger is still anger,
grudge has always been grudge,
tired.. all along.
left alone and still alone.
what's so bright of it all? optimistic doesnt seem to be a word anymore..
-lailahaillaanta subhanaka inni kuntu minazzalimiiin.....
Monday, July 6, 2009
The Hill -marketa irglova
Walking up the hill tonight
and you have closed your eyes,
I wish I didn't have to make all those mistakes and be wise.
Please try to be patient and know that I'm still learning.
I'm sorry that you have to see the strength inside me burning.
Where are you my angel now?
Don't you see me crying?
I know that you can do it all
but you can't say I'm not trying.
I'm on my knees in front of him
but he doesn't seem to see me
but all his troubles on this night
is looking right through me
and I'm letting myself down
by satisfying you
and I wish that you could see
I have my troubles, too.
Looking at you sleeping,
another man I love.
I'm sitting here weeping
while the hours pass so slow.
I know that in the morning
I have to let you go
and you'll be just a man
once I used to know.
Before these past days
someone I don't recognize
This isn't all my fault.
When will you realize?
Looking at you leaving,
I'm looking for a sign
Walking up the hill tonight
and you have closed your eyes,
I wish I didn't have to make all those mistakes and be wise.
Please try to be patient and know that I'm still learning.
I'm sorry that you have to see the strength inside me burning.
Where are you my angel now?
Don't you see me crying?
I know that you can do it all
but you can't say I'm not trying.
I'm on my knees in front of him
but he doesn't seem to see me
but all his troubles on this night
is looking right through me
and I'm letting myself down
by satisfying you
and I wish that you could see
I have my troubles, too.
Looking at you sleeping,
another man I love.
I'm sitting here weeping
while the hours pass so slow.
I know that in the morning
I have to let you go
and you'll be just a man
once I used to know.
Before these past days
someone I don't recognize
This isn't all my fault.
When will you realize?
Looking at you leaving,
I'm looking for a sign
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